Still Aliveeee

This for me is the worst part. I try and block it out. But its the part I remember the most. The part where my mother went from being my mai to my mother, that person who tried to ruin my life. And who will never ever be a part of it again.

Yes I called my mother mai, I couldn't pronunce the u in mum. So I called her mai, the welsh version sort of. Now I don't. She is no longer a mother to me. She is dead to me. For a reason or reasons.

( part 3 )

So there we go thats my mother, parts are missing. Parts I've forgotten. But thats the main part of it.

I was emotionally abused by someone who is supposed to love you unconditionally. And she never gets to be part of my life again.

This is continuation of my post about my mother.

Part 2

( Part 2  )

This doesn't excuse what she did. Its just what happened.

This is a warning for those in my flist that don't want to read the following.

    This post is about my mother and my subsequent childhood. Its the reason why I grew up bipolar.
Its the reason I am how I am.
Its the reason I can never have her in my life again.

So if you don't want to read about emotional abuse and poverty, please don't go under the cut. I understand and respect people who don't want to know.
I don't even want to know.

Ok here goes.

( This is way too long )

End of part 1.



 

This is what I did today/yesterday.

Made Edward



Then a veejo

Thats it I'm going to resign as Social Sec, if they can't expect me to do my job then I give up. I did it and they had already gone around my back and done it.

Wish I hadn't bought a dress for the Ceidlih cause I really feel like not going now. Though I could just go home next weekend.

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